Baby Ponderings

You know there is a real, live person inside you when hiccups disturb your peace. Or when a heel kicks at your belly button. What I really "love" is when a head bulges out from underneath my ribs and makes it impossible for me to get comfortable. My growing belly makes it harder and harder to get in a good sleeping position. Good thing for extra pillows. I've got five weeks between now and my due date and feeling those little feet kicking inside makes me anxious to hold that baby without my tummy being in the way. Holding your belly is not quite the same as holding the baby. I know that in a few short weeks, our lives will be changed forever. Evenings won't be quiet and Adam and I won't be alone for extended periods of time. There will always be someone hungry at dinner time... and lunch time, breakfast time, snack time, all the time... I'll need to find a babysitter if we want to go out on a date. "Extra" spending money won't be extra anymore because someone will either need clean diapers or has grown out of their clothes.The first thing on my mind in the morning will be the little one who spent the night in the room down the hall. But the wonderful thing is that God has sent this little life to stay with us while he or she grows up. We have been entrusted with raising this child and teaching them that Jesus loves them and died for them. Why did God so choose to bless us with a baby? I don't know, but I do know that I will love every minute of being a Mommy and I so look forward to holding their hand when they take their first steps. Seeing that smile and hearing the first gurglings and giggles. Sharing a growing affection for our child with my husband. People say they grow up way too fast, so I will try my best to take in every moment. I know there will be hard days, days when I want to run away from responsibility, but in the end, who would want to run away from bedtime stories and happy feet padding into the kitchen to see if they can "help" Mommy wash the dishes? I must remember to savor each moment the God has blessed me with, even if it means that I must grow up. But not grow up too much, cause after all, someone has to get down on the floor and play too.