Friday, November 30, 2007

A Post All About Food

Being a Mom can make you tired. For the past couple days Josh has been hungry, hungry, hungry. He must be going through a growth spurt. The only reason that I have the time to blog is that he is sleeping. He finally fell asleep and so did I. Molly (my dog) was so kind as to wake me up after she thought I had had enough sleep. Isn't she sweet? Josh really has been growing quite a bit. His hands even look bigger to me! It's fun watching him grow, but I don't want him to grow too fast!

On another note, it is getting close to Christmas and this is when my boss wants all the help she can get for the season. I've told her that I would help out, but my dilemma is little Josh. It's not that I don't trust my "babysitter", cause she did a fine job of taking care of me when I was a baby. But I've been purely breastfeeding and I'm not sure how to go about making the transititon back into work. I would like to keep nursing, but I don't have a pump. Any suggestions? I know I may have to invest in one, but before I do that, does anyone have any better ideas?

*In the midst of writing this, I called a lady friend of mine who has used a pump in the past to ask her for suggestions. She has a pump, is no longer able to use it as she had breast cancer, and she offered it to me. Praise the Lord and pass the tax rebate! All I would need is the starter kit to go with it. (All the fresh fixings.) This makes me feel much relieved about going back to work. It's not even that I'm going back for as much as I used to, but the one day a week long-term, and the few days a week for the busy season. It's good to know that Josh can continue to get what is the best for him. Yeah!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Thanksgiving at Grandma's

These may not look very Thanksgiving-ish, but these photos are from Josh's first Thanksgiving. What a cute family we make! Hey Adam! Don't let Josh drink your coffee!

An Ode to Thanksgiving (Okay, so not really)

Sorry to leave you all in the dark about Josh and his first Thanksgiving. What can I say? What sort of excuse could I come up with?

Ah, Thanksgiving... The time of year when Aunts and Uncles, cousins and Grandparents flock together for good fellowship and tasty food. This year Mom and Dad had a full house- 22 people all together. It could've been 23 if Jim hadn't up and moved to Minnesota, but we'll have to excuse him. He'll be here for Christmas (keep your fingers crossed!). Naturally Josh was the star of the show. Upon arrival, the girl cousins flocked around him and cooed over him like he was a little doll. He was passed from person to person, but he was unaware of the extra attention as he slept almost the whole time. Once again, my Mom had not a fighting chance of holding him for any amount of time greater than five minutes. She's much too easy to steal a baby from and when there are so many eager arms, she just can't seem to keep him very long. Don't worry Grandma, Josh is coming over again today and then you can hold him for as long as you want. Thanksgiving is one of the best times of year... All that family and all that food. A warm house and a cozy couch. The ladies gather around a puzzle, the men around the football game and the kids around the Apples to Apples card game.

Ahem... Now comes time for my excuses. Josh needs my attention and now you see why I haven't been very good at keeping up with my blog. Till later...

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for. This year has been filled with blessings, big and small. Should I save a list for tomorrow? I think so.

For Thanksgiving we shall be heading to Grandma's house, as it should be. I call my Mom Grandma now... We made pumpkin pie yesterday and I went grocery shopping for goodies like cranberry sauce and pickles. Pickles always go over well at Thanksgiving, as do olives. On Friday, Adam and I are having his parents and grandparents over for second Thanksgiving. His grandparents live two hours away and have not yet seen Joshua, so I am looking forward to their meeting. For second Thanksgiving, Adam is cooking a turkey. He has not yet tried this, so he is being adventurous. The other day he was watching Alton Brown's cooking show and was inspired to try a turkey. I am supposed to make another pumpkin pie, which I will have to tackle this afternoon as I will have no time tomorrow. It will be interesting having two Thanksgivings in a row. I suppose I should also try to finish folding the laundry which has occupied my living room for the past several days. Which means I should get off my butt and start my day. Hmm... A shower does sound nice. Boy, I better get moving!

Monday, November 19, 2007

A New Balancing Act

I bet you are wondering what has happened to us. Seeing as I am now a mother, I have new responsibilities and have not yet balanced a new schedule, therefore leaving me in a pickle when it comes to writing a blog. It's not that I haven't thought about writing, it's just finding time between normal responsibilities and the new ones, like feeding a baby every few hours and changing baby's diaper and cuddling baby. All this takes up time... Time with which, before Josh entered picture, I had nothing better to do with than to sit at the computer and update the world with the menial happenings in my life. And seeing as I have left you all in the dark about my new motherhood, and Josh is contentedly sleeping in his cradle (at the moment), I take this opportunity to tell you the joys I have been experiencing.

Josh is three weeks old today and has already gained a pound and a half (as of Friday). He has also grown a full inch. That brings him up to 10 lbs. 1 oz. and 22 inches. He looks huge and I cannot imagine ever having to give birth to a ten pound baby. I don't know how Mom gave birth to my 9 lb. 12 oz. brother. He is still amazingly beautiful (naturally) except that he has broke out with a rash on his face. Poor little guy looks as if he has poison ivy crawling all over his cheeks and eye lids. Hopefully it is calming down now and will soon go away. I can't have Shelly taking photos of him with an ugly rash, even if she does have a beautifier...

So as of late, I have been snuggled up in my cozy little house with my baby, trying to balance cleaning in between breast feeding. It seems that, if I go one day without cleaning, I will never be able to catch up. Josh, of course, takes precedence over anything else and I much prefer it that way. But I am now able to sympathize with those Mothers who have many children and a messy house. And to make matters worse, I have a husband who leaves a dark cloud of grossness behind him, no matter where he goes. I think I have given up on my basement completely. I have cleaned it several times now, and after this latest project I wash my hands of the mess and give it up. The basement will be messy from now until who knows when. After writing this, I will probably end up cleaning the basement in a short while as I usually do when
I give up a mess. After all, I must go to the basement quite frequently because the washing machine is there and I can't just ignore the stuff everywhere. Don't get me wrong, I have a very crafty hubby who is great when it comes to making things like outdoor boilers and work benches. I am very proud of him, but it's hard to keep up with him especially since he is completely unorganized.

I don't know why I went off on a cleaning tangent when I was just going to tell you about little Josh. Now what do you want to know about the new adventure I find myself on?

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

It Must Be Love


Rules: Once tagged, you must link to the person who tagged you. Then post the rules before your list, and list 8 random things about yourself. At the end of the post, you must tag and link to 8 other people, visit their sites, and leave a comment letting them know they’ve been tagged.

1) I was tagged by my dear Aunt Rachel.
2) I have no idea how to link to people.
3) I became a Mommy 16 short days ago.
4) I like pudding.
5) On Monday, I raked 10 piles of leaves.
6) I love to laugh, long and loud and clear.
7) This summer I must've eaten at least a dozen jars of green olives.
8) I gave the dog a bath this morning.

How's that for random? Hmm... Now who do I tag?

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Feeding Time

Daddy takes good care of Josh.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Put to Good Use

Josh uses the cradle Grandpa made special just for him.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Joshua's Debut

This is How He Came

I think I should let everyone know that, when I write stories, I really write novels. I started this exerpt of my life on Tuesday and have just finished up this Thursday afternoon. Please excuse the lengthiness of this post. If you do not care for novels, skip down to the last paragraph to get to the exciting ending. It's like reading the last page in a book first, but I'll allow it this once.

That Sunday morning, I woke up to get ready for church. I pulled my white shirt over my head and looked in the mirror. I let go a cry of frustration... Even my maternity clothes didn't fit anymore! My belly was hanging out and would continue to do so throughout the day, if it wasn't for my constant tugging at the bottom hem. A tear dripped out of my eye... Ugh. Adam asked me what was wrong and I told him my complaint. That on top of very little sleep the night before. I hadn't been able to sleep until after 1:30am and was very grateful that our church had a late service. We managed to get to church on time (which is highly unusual) and we stood for the first song. My legs felt so heavy and tired. Figuring since I was now full term, I had a good excuse to sit down half-way through the song. Sitting felt nice. The service was exceptionally good that day and I left feeling encouraged by the verses that our pastor covered in Philippians chapter 3. We stopped for brunch on the way home and, as I anticipated, I was asked when I was due. "Today," was my answer, to which she replied, "What are you doing here then?" All I was doing was waiting and I was fairly sure that I'd still be waiting for a good portion of the week. Once we were home, my bed looked so comfy. I crawled in and covered me head. About an hour later, I was awoken by knocking at our back door. It was our neighbor who often comes over to visit and play with our dog. I drag myself out of the comfort of my bed, blink my eyes a few times trying to wake up, and wander off to see my neighbor. Little did I know that that hour of sleep would come to be a lifesaver. Both Adam and I ended up going to bed somewhat early that night, around 9:30. Of course, sleep was still going to evade me and I lay there till 10:30 when I got out of bed and headed to the kitchen for a snack. My tummy was rumbling with hunger. I was also having a few minor contractions but nothing to get excited about, as this had been happening all week. I made myself some toast with peanut butter and sat down at the computer to eat. I pulled up my face book account and started doing puzzles. The contractions weren't going away and as I finished my snack, I glanced at the time. 10:52. I continued putting together online puzzles for about an hour and a half. The cramping sensations in my back were slightly worse than they had been the other nights I had had them, but were very tolerable, I thought. They had been coming steadily every two - six minutes. Hmm. By now it was after twelve and I turned off the Internet and got up. Adam was in bed sleeping. He must've woke up when I walked in the room, but I don't remember exactly what I said. I didn't want to get him too excited because, after all, this had happened before and the contractions had petered out and gone away.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God." Philippians 4:6

Earlier in the evening, I found myself rereading Philippians chapter 3, the scripture that was covered in the message during church that morning. I had been having a bit of anxiety over the weekend and really wanted to know how to deal with it properly. I wasn't sure where to start, so I read chapter three and on through chapter four. There, in chapter four, I was struck by verse six. It was a familiar verse, but often times we just need to hear something twice (or more, in my case) in order for it to stick. In that verse, my problem was addressed. Give over my anxiety to the Lord. He can handle it for me. I don't need to stress out over silly things. Funny thing is, I wasn't stressed over giving birth or labor, but something else entirely. But now I knew, or should I say was reminded, what I had to do. I couldn't relax until I spent some time in prayer asking the Lord to handle my problems. So that's what I had done.

*I know I skipped backwards here, but I felt like it was an important part of my story and therefore should be told. You see, the Lord had it so I didn't have Joshua until I had given over this anxiety to Him. It was almost like He was waiting for me. I know that I probably would've given birth the same time even if I hadn't , but it's great to know that, by the time Josh did come, the Lord had taken care of my problems and I could be at rest with it.*

So back to just after midnight... Adam was now awake and aware that I had been having some minor contractions. He wondered if this could possibly be it, but how could I be sure? I then called my doctor who thought, since I was already four centimeters and the contractions were 2-4 minutes apart, that I should come in, but had no need to rush. At this point I'm thinking that it's probably just false labor and we shouldn't over-react. My bags were all packed anyways, so at least we didn't have to worry about that. We decide to wait a while longer and see what happens. Adam lays on one couch and after being reassured by me that he would be awoken if anything changed, he falls asleep. I, on the other hand, lay on the other couch and watch the clock for the next two hours trying to sleep. The minutes tick by and so do the contractions. They're not quite like clockwork and I can still breath and talk if I pleased, but my back is kinda sore. I explain the back pain by comparing it with the aches you get with a bad period. By 2:30 Adam wakes up and asks me how I'm doing. I was about to wake him up because 2:30 was my time till which I was waiting. I think we should go, but I'm still afraid that we'll go all the way to the hospital and then everything will stop and we'll have wasted a trip in the middle of the night for nothing. And it's 45 minutes there. So we pack up our dog and grab our things. Molly is being dropped off at a friends house and that is another reason why I am nervous. I don't want to wake them up at 3:00 in the morning if this is fake.

Anyone up for the fast version?

I get to the hospital just after 3am... I was five cm and contractions were closer together than they liked. I get admitted and we have our very own room. This is where I get the only hour of sleep that night. Adam sleeps too, but in the chair/bed across the room. I had been hooked up to a monitor so I wasn't worried anymore about timing my own contractions and I could still sleep through my contractions. At about six am, I got two new nurses to look after me. They asked me my rate of pain, which was very minimal. The one nurse, Jane, let me get up and walk around the halls with Adam. Together, we timed my contractions, which were now steadily three minutes apart. After a few laps, Adam got bored and since it was about 8 am now, and I wasn't in grave pain yet, they let me eat breakfast. Yum... I was hungry and would need the extra calories for what was ahead. At 9:00 I see the doctor who was on call, who also happened to be the doctor that I'd been seeing all along at the OBGYN. The nice Dr, not the one who made me feel fat. I was then six centimeters but the contractions I was having were not going to get me anywhere. At least they weren't anywhere near strong enough to push out a baby. So at 9:30 the Dr. broke my water and a few short moments later, I started feeling the pain. Did I want to stand up, sit down, lay back, walk, squat, do anything? I didn't know what I wanted to do or how to get comfortable. Sitting on the toilet sounded good to me. So I sat there for a while... They asked me if I was okay in there. How could I be? I could barely stand to wash my hands! Once out of the bathroom, I hung like a rag doll around Adam's neck. He rocked me back and forth and helped me to remember how to breathe. Pretty soon, I didn't feel like standing... My knees kept buckling during contractions and I was getting so hot!They let me sit on the birthing ball and I held onto Adam's waist. He kept swabbing my neck and forehead with a cold washcloth. When the contractions would start up (Adam was watching the monitor numbers), he let me know one was coming and then he would breathe through it with me. At one point, I tell him that I think I want some pain medication. My plan was to go natural, but how could I endure? He tells me, "Let me know when you want something." I repeat what I had just said. He doesn't get it, but in the end it was worth it. Somewhere around 11:00, they check me again. This time I'm 9 1/2 cm and the nurse tells us we only have a few contractions to go before I can push. By now I'm laying in the bed and the contractions are very close together and quite overwhelming. Adam continues to be by my side, helping me through every minute. He passes me my drink, swabs my forehead and breathes with me. The nurses remind me not to hyperventilate, which is very hard not to do. Everything in the room is set up and ready to go. I can't help but think, "This must really be it." Okay, finally I have reached 10 cm. The pushing begins and for the next hour and a half, I push like never before. My eyes were going to pop out, my whole body wants to give up, I am at the point of exhaustion. Adam counts to ten in my ear for each push. He's right there with me the whole time. In between contractions, my body relaxes and, if it wasn't for the next contraction, I could've fallen asleep right away. So thankful am I at that point for breakfast and that hour of sleep. The Doctor is there now... They are urging me to push harder. I try my best... Soon they tell me that they can see the baby's hair. The baby has hair? I was expecting a bald baby... "Push with everything you've got!" I thought I had been. I try harder. Adam gets real excited... He's still up by my head counting to ten. "You're doing great!" "You're almost there!" Then Adam says, "You can see him!" They urge me to continue. How can I stop now? Adam says, "There he is! He's here!"And then it's all over... They hold up the baby and tell me it's a boy. I just knew it would be a boy from the beginning. Oh wait... don't I get to hold him? But they've taken him way over to the other side of the room to clean him up. I protest and say that I want to hold him. The Dr. tells me that they're just making sure he gets the best start. I just want to look at him and touch him. The tears start to come along with stifled sobs. I'm so tired and I've worked so hard... Why can't they just let me hold him close? Adam is there next to him, stroking his little body and kissing his little face. And here I am stuck in this bed with the Dr. tending to me. It seemed like forever before I was finally able to hold our little baby. In actuality it had been about a half hour. Even once he was in my arms, the tears still came. I was overwhelmed. This was our baby. The baby we had been waiting for. God had sent him to us to take care of. God had given us little Joshua Adam. And now he was here.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

My Baby

Joshua Adam
Born: October 29, 2007
8 lbs. 9 oz.
21 inches long
...and he's beautiful

I'll tell you all about it hopefully by tomorrow. With some pictures.